DUTY OF LOVE

Somany hard things have come to you
but they make you stronger
you do not need to be afraid
your shoulders may seem little to you
but they are strong enough to bear the burden and
remember you are not alone
helpers aboun-especially the great helper above
I've also promise never to leave you alone
the morning may be hard
but believe me, joy cometh in the evening
only by the duty of love
i will tend the land and pay the rent
my offer to you still stands and
grows daily more full in my heart
what will i do, if your life is to be here with me
i will resign my post
to have good times together without any disturbance
as short warm summer drifts
into the chills of autumn
so are our lives drifting into new paths
it is so

LOVE THAT HAVE LOST

You let out a horrid cry
it sounded like a squawk
you ran weeping to me
then my words were lost
i remembered the night when you came into my room and
crawled in bed with me to whisper secrets

secrets like love and care
just as you have always be doing when we started this relationship
you told me about finding love that have lost
how can i do without forgiving you
one of the secrets you confided to me
when you climbed into my bed
you told it to me between sobs and outbursts of anger
that i'm dating someone else where
but you are now guilty
you are first caught dating another man
you never believe me
you use knife in peeling my yam
but  i love you
promise me you will never do it again and
also believe me

COME BACK INTO MY LIFE

Charming and beautiful young girl
where are you?
i have such hopes of finding you
your friend said she could bring you back to me
but she didn't succeed
i expect she's a fake like all the others
who promised and failed
will you come again?
will you come back into my life?
i do so want you
i still remember your gentle, consoling smile
as you do sits down next to me
in the days long ago
looking back on those days
i remember that i used to sit and watch the clock
thinking that the time would never pass and
then, before i knew it
minutes, hours, days, and weeks passed with incredible speed
how i hope to see you again
i feel lonely without you
you can never understand my love for you

I DON'T KNOW YOU THAT WELL

But I'll make you smile before your tears get dry,

I wont say "I'll never tell you a lie" But If I do, I do it for a reason, some day I'll tell you why ??

I don't say "we'll never have a fight" But I'll say I'm really sorry when I realize you were right.

I don't say "Life together will be easy & bright" But when things get tough, I'll hold you tight!!!

Because:

• I don't know you that well but I think you are cute and hopeful we can meet one day

• Only if you were here...it would have been a different story and the big changes that happened after it would had been a whole different story

• I miss you a lot and I hope we get to meet soon and talk about the old good times

• I can tell you anything that's on my mind without getting judged can't wait to meet you in person one day.

•  Words can't describe you. You are the best and  no one will take your place. We had a ball while you were here and I wish you was still here. I miss you and one day we will see each other again.

• You are the coolest person in the world, and I wouldn't trade you for the world...we'll definitely need to have a night out.

His "Wife-Beating" attitude and the love for control

I can't withstand violence in a relationship. I was once a victim. The relationship lasted for about three/four years. I didn't know who I was then. I was so timid, I almost stopped smiling and almost stopped laughing, but there was this inner strength in me that helped me to rediscover myself. In fact, I had no self esteem then. I wanted to change and be who I was not, based on the ill treatment and violent nature of my man then. He was constantly abusing, beating and battering me inside the house and in public places. I think there was a time when I walked round with bandage on my leg, courtesy of my violent lover. Funny enough, this violent lover of mine claimed to love me and wanted to marry me then.
     I wanted to marry him. I had started buying pots and other household items because I was in love. I wanted to settle down, I wanted to have my children with him. I wanted to be happy and continue to do my work but he was that bad. I kept think he would change, but he didn't. I tried my best to be everything to him, but finally I said enough was enough, this relationship was not of God and not for me. During those turbulent periods, I was ashamed. I couldn't tell anybody. Why did I stay? It's very ironical because after the beating comes the gifts, the begging, the cries and words like 'It's your fault, I'd try and change, it's not me..' Everybody will now be saying forgive him, he's begging. In one of the beatings, he broke my ankle..but let's not dwell much on things of the past.

    I cannot tell you his name, we are both separately married now and still waxing stronger in the entertainment industry. Those that knew us then know the person and they also know his name.